mixed up dream[PART 1]
we drove around under the stars. this van is bigger than an ordinary van. my mom drove us to where we were going, with my dad in the passanger seat. behind them was me, my (ex) boyfriend mike, and my friend catlyn. Behind us was my twin sis, gwen and next to her my best friend danielle. and for some odd reason my neighbor was in here with us and her young son, who i both didn't like at all, and if they did talk to me i would say something back to be nice. but couldn't care less.
after awhile thought my neighbor and her son weren't behind us anymore. they were gone. weeeeeird. oh well, doens't matter to me. we drove for how long i don't know. but befor i knew it we were standing before a door where it opened into a big long (very long) concrete building.
once we stepped inside i found ou that there was windows in this big, empty place. on the wall across from us was from end to end sliding glass doors. i saw an endless sunset hanging over an endless valley of green.&
insane....Im lookin from the inside
while you stare from the outside
Over lookin free souls through bars
I see colour on the outside
But nothing but white in here
Thats why I was never gonna tell you
you were never gonna help
Instead when you saw the pain sweeping across my arms
you became overwhelmed. But how can you be when i'm the one thats caged in you see.
you make me cry
I'm sorry if i wasn't wat you wanted to see.
Youll never know the pain that I carry
No one cares about me, even you
this was the best you could do?
your weaker than me.
Im not crazy, nor insane
If theres a difference, then tell me
Now I wish I was never born
i don't want to know what
Youll never imagine the pain
the deep loneliness that bleeds in from ever crack from every wall
until you live it alone
locked up and no one listens to u because you are crazy
so dont say you understand
because I don't want fake sympathy
and thats why
worse than I